No Reserves, No Retreats, No Regrets

we were talking about race and class issues in soci tutorial the other day and for once, sociology had a practical application for me. to help me understand the frustration that i feel, has a basis and explanation. i think, beyond my own tendencies to be over-conservative, there are totally decent reasons why we can afford to be more classless and raceless. One: God is. Second, it's hard to reconcile racist jokes and the fact that you have friends and people you like who are of those races. i was totally convicted that i still held a lot of views that i wouldn't want to be on the other side of. Pastor really drummed the message in this week -preach it Pastor! Thank God that He is able to do a work in me, regardless of my narrow-mindedness and stubbornness. I know there's a lot of views I've to change, but I'm glad that I'm on the way. That I'm in a church that will be committed to transform lives and mindsets, that we'd actively be on the way to emulate ...

Haha.. get high over Alan luo! ^^D especially now when I'm really feeling the mid-term-&-final-exams-clash stress... Fighting!

W489. W489. W489. =) trying to get used to the numbah. hee. hmm.. of course there's the nervousness - this is my first multiplication after all - at the thought of no more regularity and habitual tromping off to cell group. but there's excitement too, at the thought of being a pioneer and starting off. this rash is really a bummer. i've only gotten it twice before and it faded within a day, & the second time it was 'hide-able'. now i can't stand the thought of wearing jeans OR shorts! > busy week ahead, gotta screw up my resolve & meet the day every morning. praying. The peace of God is POWERFUL! I remember that from SOT ;D it was apt then, in the rush between assignments, and it is an apt reminder now, in the rush between assignments still. maybe i can't always be all held-together and polished and perfect, but i wanna enjoy the ride =) ok, back to my studies!

don't have to sleep for the next few weeks. =) study with me? =)

today took a self-announced day-off from school. i realized that throughout the year, i've been squeezing in these unofficial days because something or other seems to crop up to take up those official days off. i know it's no good reason, but it seriously helped to let my physical body rest (after the 4 days at work last week & lots of fellowshipping & lack of sleep). talked some stuff out with Jean too - realize that i really need that. not only with Jean of course. need to really be able to talk stuff with my friends too.. read a book 'the cross and switchblade' - it talks about a revival amongst the teenage gangsters in New York, some 40 years back, because a young country pastor was willing. he handled drugs, failures (that amounted to death and tragedy) and sacrifice. what got me was reading how complete some conversions of these gangsters were. i stood there reading over Jeannette's shoulder, and tears just came to my eyes. i really want that - the all...

i've got my mom's stubbornness and my dad's temper. this manifests at certain times of the month. time to change.

aiyah.. today's just not my day man.. lol.. get ready for some ranting.. worked the previous day, ended at 10 plus pm.. & today had to wake up at the ungodly hour of 430am to get to work by 530am.. u can imagine what getting a cab is like at that time lah... i had to continuously walk along the roads, trying to out-chiong fellow workers at the airport.. T.T but thank God for small mercies, i reached work on time.. had a good start to the day.. which ended in my extending to 11 hours, getting surplus in my cash register up to a grand total of $14.25. Joanne take a bow, you've really outdone yourself this time. ever since i join this outlet, i've been setting records man. first the lowest results on customer snapshot, and now this. woo~ not to mention i'm constantly forgetting to hand in work schedule on time, resulting in ... drumroll~ a total of 24 hours worked last month! T.T i need the money. i need to study. i also need a brain-break or time to chill out without ...