No Reserves, No Retreats, No Regrets

I like Pst Kenneth Hagin Jr for one fact that liberated me: no one on earth now, or past, or present (other than Jesus) cares for you more than you yourself does. Sometime, I gotta face up to the decisions I've made so far. Sure, step 1 of growing up: clean up after yourself. Step 2: take care of yourself But that's harder said than done. It's sobering to realize that all my decisions geared towards feeding my short-term desires (i want to sleep, i want to read, i want good food, i want to have fun, i want to live life now) have not always been beneficial. After 19 years of living, the past few months having to fend for myself financially & exercising more freedom in going where i want to, have all shown me one thing - i've little or close to nothing for which i am proud of. Yea - caring. Does it all boil down to making another person/yourself feel good, giving whatever it takes so a person's so-called need is satisfied or showing love only in a way that the oth...

yea quite excited abt all these stuff coming up in the next few months 1. New house - moving by May 26th 2. POS - May 31st!!!!!!!!!!! O.O''' 3. Emerge - May 31st - Jun 2nd ^^ 4. Beloved cousins coming over! Mid-June & Mid-July! 5. Redang trip! Snorkeling! XD Jun 3rd - 7th WOO~ 6. SERMON ON THE MOUNT - it's exciting to be on the same page as the rest of the church. :'@ v touched :) are there words enough to express the me crying out for you sweep aside all other things i'm coming in pressing in i say i decide i persist that i want more i will receive more i will get my breakthrough the road sweeps wide in front of me my flesh despairs but my spirit leaps with joy that i still have a chance to do things right no matter the detours i still have time oh God take me beyond this flesh that experiences tiredness that is easily depressed that cannot love beyond things i understand i want to see - depth beyond the natural i want to hear - your voice of hope speaking ...

just wanna lie down and sleep

Here ache, there ache, everywhere ache! That's a summary of how going back for POS training after a 1.5 yr hiatus does to you! hahaha~ but no regrets - seeing people (jc2s!) sacrificing sleep, studies, family time n comfort to put together a performance to inspire other youths to get on fire, it's either you get it or you don't. Haha.. I remember again how tiring Emerge conference is, both before and during the whole event. BUT like wat many say, if you don't get involved physically, you can't get the most out of the conference spiritually. It's not too late guys! Thank God, that He's really blessed my family time - quality, not quantity. > Last Sunday, we celebrated Mom's Day (get ahead of the crowd this week! hehe.. smart move eh.. Mom's idea, not mine!) at Changi Airport's Swensons. Woohoo... everyone was just leaving room for the ice cream la! Anyway, Swensons has really improved their menu so really, a RECOMMENDATION here for u guys racki...

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go. I think more like a good chat with a good friend would do good =) Miss Ber!> Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'. Relationship-wise - rocking-boat situations = easily depressed. BUT that's something I want to change. One thing I'm being taught, to love always comes first before any reciprocation. I know I have to work on getting i...

OK, I'm finally prepared for Mom's Day 2007! I'm always caught unawares la... despite all the advertising going on - haha~ i mean, other than Aileen (who memorizes ad jingles for goodness' sakes), we all zonk out during ads right? RIGHT??? Xp But I decided that this week shall be Mother's Week ! =D To do's for me mom: 1. do the ironing voluntarily so she'll think she stepped into the wrong house 2. wake up by myself (ok, this is more of a long-term goal) 3 wake up to relieve mom of breakfast duties > 4. be upbeat and positive, be the best I can be, be responsible for my own emotional health so I can contribute to the family atmosphere =D 5. kiss her 6. hugs 7. Dinner on the kids! 8. Present (still pondering what to buy...T.T'') 9. Clean up around the place 10 Have QUALITY TIME instead of QUANTITY time to argue and make each other unhappy > Hmm.. was thinking about time management today while running at the park (tip: just hurry up get off your ...

alright.. come to think of it, my job isn't bad. I do like the people, though I hardly talk to them. haha.. in this last week of my job, i'm suddenly flooded with work - did you know you can type till your hand feels real weird? haha~ that's twice today that i fell asleep in front of the comp, totally unintentional(!) and drooled la! > cham~ i need eyedrops. :p i think what amuses me most is when i overhear (eh, not eavesdrop, really cannot help it) my colleagues on the phone. Lol! Oookkay, this is called 'beggars can't be choosers'; but really, can be quite funny - and sweet. Like when they speak to exasperating 'complainers', they have no qualms in showing their annoyance. My supervisor's head is super frank la! I really never met such a person as her - if i were the one on the other end getting scolded like a schoolkid by her, I'd be lidat --> '''O.O''' hahaha~ but i quite pei fu those ppl w jobs needing them to p...