No Reserves, No Retreats, No Regrets

Ok.. the 3rd post today. Yesterday night, this morning, whichever. XD granted I've been sleeping early (10pm!) the last few nights and lazing in bed till the last minute so, I'm allowed a sleepless night! Just watched Seducing Mr Perfect, which features Daniel Henney. Lol.. one thing about Korean dramas, ok, MOVIE this time but it should have been a drama, is that it's rated 11 on a scale of 10 for comedy. ALL the female leads always end up embarrassing themselves! *groan don't ask me why i still get addicted then laugh at myself afterwards, and get addicted - again. Haha.. ok.. I love fridays cos i get it off from school! =D I'm supposed to be mugging which is why i'm gonna punish myself with hours of the latter task after i get this post done. After viewing Nat's blog, I'm inspired to be more techno-saavy and create visual spectacle for my readers. Meaning... photos! Haha.. started the morning with a trek down to lavender to Miss La's home. Lol...

What puts a smile on my face: remembering Emerge'07 and the awesome experience people that rank 10 on the make-me-smile-meter (in no order of importance): Lil Sharon, Esther Lam, Peannette (Peanut's and my sister), My mom who's hopping abt reliving her old chapteh-champion days, the Kang Twins, Sheryl, Ber! and lots of ppl i know i'm forgetting at the moment.. toddlers nodding off, downy heads bobbing off to the side as they perch on those seats at the back of bicycles so common in Pasir Ris! A.R. Bernard Phil Pringle's podcasts the idea of SALE! lunch dates w ppl in school *hint hint a good book (and the rarity of such treasures guarantees a grin with lasting effects for up to a week) nice green things being out at the park the thought of ALL of my cousins, n my 1 nephew going home after a LOOOOnnngggGG day at school (specifically the three-almost-back-to-back-tutorials on Thurs) My Math lecturer who makes such an effort to reiterate the points and make sure we get

Missing Person by Michael W. Smith & Wayne Kirkpatrick Another question in me One for the powers that be It's got me thrown and so I Put on my poker-face And try to figure it out This undeniable doubt Common occurence - feeling so out of place God am I cynical now? Can't help but wondering how My heart evolved into a Rock beating inside of me So unreal Such a historic ordeal Where's that feeling that I don't feel? There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain And like a child he would believe without a reason Without a trace he disappeared into a void and I've been searching for that missing person for that missing person Under the lavender moon so many thoughts consuming moved in the glowing light that once burned so bright in me is this a radical phase the problematical age that keeps me running from all that i used to be is there a way to return is there a way to unlearn that common knowledge that's chipping away at my soul i've been gone t

an NUS-ian! lol.. realized from gleaning my friends' blogs that i haven't really mentioned much abt life in NUS. Well, I don't really count uni life to have really begun full-swing - this week's the deciding week! Tutorials begin!!! I've only just awakened to the fact that it's bye-bye holidays and back to the books. One thing I can say abt Uni life, it's real fast-paced. And independence, teach-less-learn-more? Understatement of the year!!! I mean, mid yrs in 6 weeks! 2 weeks alr down.. I'm like, where did the days fly to??? Last night n this morning's the first i actually sat down n organized my desk n get acquainted with my friends Demand-and-Supply (egads, econs, don't get me started). Lol.. but finally getting my own laptop's a great motivation to be studious. U know, studious in the way children getting their new assessment books get. It's funny how i've always been excited about starting university, (esp during JC days, if only

Finally! Typing this from my new laptop - dude.. regardless of the fact that it's an Acer Travelmate and that all of e peeps i've raved abt it so far have, oh so tactfully mentioned how fujitsu is better (with the exception of Jean!!! XD).. i love it! Ok, so ends well the initiation period into uni life. Had a total meltdown in the toilet last wk. So Joyce Meyer's sermon was totally for the now. I think i take things too seriously sometimes. reaction reaction. God, help me OVERCOME. I'm pretty excited abt this dhoppers group i just found in NUS, tt holds hip hop classes. It'd be a total outlet for me this sem, now that I've to take Econs as my 5th mod, instead of critical writing or my SS module!!! Xp Alright.. but it's pretty exciting learning something entirely new so.. =d I agree with La - I love being a student again! And like my cousin said, this is the best time of our lives. Of course, glory to glory - i will LOVE n be PASSIONate abt my career so yea.

I'm a father and a son I've been a lover with just one but this world can get me all undone and i'm frightened i'm the only one i wrestle with the thoughts i keep if i sow the seed of arrogance then it's loneliness i'll reap it's loneliness i'll reap please don't leave me stranded here with a head of lies and a heart of fear my life's a show on God's TV the world an audience watching me so wake me, shake me, keep me sharp as i touch the power of God's great harp and this world can fill your head with praise that steals me from eternal grace so how can i serve God and wealth? i can captivate an army but i can't control myself i can't control myself Ghostly figure out at sea i hear a voice that's calling me to walk upon the waves of faith for in the arms of God, I AM SAFE All this time since the day that i was born i've never known a time like this i don't wanna let you down I will sing , sing for your light has come

awesome timing God. really. it's times like these tt i KNOW u exist like, in-my-face. i think i will start to think more before i speak, n mean it with conviction n all my heart. Ok, odd i-dunno-what-u-call-that-branched-off-random-thought tt prob Jing xuan knows the word to. ^^ moving on. i suddenly recall e message abt how to know if God is really the first in my life - when i stop worrying. N i guess tt's wat everything is linked to. taking on more than i can chew. caring more than i can love. getting bummed abt things i cannot change. i agree w wat Sean said. It's weird how we get stumbled or hurt or offended by ppl in life, even church ('gasp, no! really?'), n we go into this i-dunno-y-being-a-christian's-more-complicated-than-not-being n stuff like tt that ALL of us hv played w before, the revelation hits us that we're really blaming God. Like, we stop wanting to pray, like, bug off God, not in the mood. N want to sleep all day. Or cry the load, the wh