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aiyah.. today's just not my day man.. lol.. get ready for some ranting..

worked the previous day, ended at 10 plus pm.. & today had to wake up at the ungodly hour of 430am to get to work by 530am.. u can imagine what getting a cab is like at that time lah... i had to continuously walk along the roads, trying to out-chiong fellow workers at the airport.. T.T but thank God for small mercies, i reached work on time..

had a good start to the day.. which ended in my extending to 11 hours, getting surplus in my cash register up to a grand total of $14.25. Joanne take a bow, you've really outdone yourself this time. ever since i join this outlet, i've been setting records man. first the lowest results on customer snapshot, and now this. woo~ not to mention i'm constantly forgetting to hand in work schedule on time, resulting in ... drumroll~ a total of 24 hours worked last month! T.T

i need the money. i need to study. i also need a brain-break or time to chill out without crashing the next day. how? how to fight time and physical limits? God~~~ haha.. but it's through these times that i really begin to relish my time alone with God - really stopping & getting into God's presence. surprisingly, i'm not reduced to tears of recrimination & self-beat-me-ups. bouncing back from this 2nd verbal warning over my cash register problems... fingers crossed that before i quit voluntarily, i won't be asked to leave cos of anymore screw ups!!!

on top of this, tonight's too hot to sleep. hence my writing this post so i won't be tossing abt w these unspoken rants in my head keeping me awake. well ta and may you guys not experience this kinda 'excitement' and unnecessary drama in your life. T.T

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