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=) Yay - day 1 of official holiday & am holding good to my promise to really enjoy the freedom to nuah at home! =)

Already there's a lot of stuff today though. Word of the day: Discipline!

Need to physically adapt to SOT man.. not used to waking up so early. Consistently. ;D Was really great that Bobby preached today because it really brings you back. It was about being a leader somemore, so it was really cool to know what your leaders have done for you. Shoutout to Jingxuan! There was a lot of stuff that we learnt today that I was thinking, eh, Jingxuan just did that last week.. heh.. Wah.. It's something else when you see someone step out in faith without the security of the training for it - indeed you really see how so many different kinds of leaders can still flow and do identical things, & know it's really the work of the Holy Spirit.

=) Quite psyched for the mock cell group test this coming friday. I'll be tested on giving the Word! (On top of worship n games.) I'm actually quite amazed that I'm not gripped with fear. Acherly that's the main thing that really kept me from being excited about joining SOT - the thought of preaching in front of ppl! But this isn't like preaching in front of pastors la. Still, I'm glad that just by making a decision that it'll be God that bring me through this season, then really all the things like FEAR loses its effect. Wow.. it's really great to be FREE from fear! It's like stepping into a new realm of freedom for me!

Bummer though.. have to miss out on class outing on friday. Was pretty excited about it. >< Priorities!

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