No Reserves, No Retreats, No Regrets

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go. I think more like a good chat with a good friend would do good =) Miss Ber!> Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'. Relationship-wise - rocking-boat situations = easily depressed. BUT that's something I want to change. One thing I'm being taught, to love always comes first before any reciprocation. I know I have to work on getting i...

OK, I'm finally prepared for Mom's Day 2007! I'm always caught unawares la... despite all the advertising going on - haha~ i mean, other than Aileen (who memorizes ad jingles for goodness' sakes), we all zonk out during ads right? RIGHT??? Xp But I decided that this week shall be Mother's Week ! =D To do's for me mom: 1. do the ironing voluntarily so she'll think she stepped into the wrong house 2. wake up by myself (ok, this is more of a long-term goal) 3 wake up to relieve mom of breakfast duties > 4. be upbeat and positive, be the best I can be, be responsible for my own emotional health so I can contribute to the family atmosphere =D 5. kiss her 6. hugs 7. Dinner on the kids! 8. Present (still pondering what to buy...T.T'') 9. Clean up around the place 10 Have QUALITY TIME instead of QUANTITY time to argue and make each other unhappy > Hmm.. was thinking about time management today while running at the park (tip: just hurry up get off your ...

alright.. come to think of it, my job isn't bad. I do like the people, though I hardly talk to them. haha.. in this last week of my job, i'm suddenly flooded with work - did you know you can type till your hand feels real weird? haha~ that's twice today that i fell asleep in front of the comp, totally unintentional(!) and drooled la! > cham~ i need eyedrops. :p i think what amuses me most is when i overhear (eh, not eavesdrop, really cannot help it) my colleagues on the phone. Lol! Oookkay, this is called 'beggars can't be choosers'; but really, can be quite funny - and sweet. Like when they speak to exasperating 'complainers', they have no qualms in showing their annoyance. My supervisor's head is super frank la! I really never met such a person as her - if i were the one on the other end getting scolded like a schoolkid by her, I'd be lidat --> '''O.O''' hahaha~ but i quite pei fu those ppl w jobs needing them to p...

Welcome to my home. Yes, yes, that's the living room. Yup - imported the furniture, 10 grand can you imagine? does he like it? what does that expression mean? Oh, let me show you the kitchen, I'm very proud of the oven. That's my bedroom to my left; yes, I pray there - oh, play the guitar too. There's my library, only fine literature there. Oh and books, yea, I try to read those once in a while - what? oh no, not the bible! Oh yes, just a little dust there. I read my bible every night. Really. quick diversion! Come along now, here's the guest room; I hope you'll be comfortable. I'm sorry it's set at the back here. I didn't think your flight would come in so early. Here, set your bags there, I'll get the sheets and make up your bed. See, the window opens up to the front gardens and - and, oh no, you don't want to go there. Oh that? Na, I keep a few doors locked around the house. It's just - a security precaution. No, of course! Just make...

Gosh - I think the hardest thing about thinking or introspection, is abt how you portray yourself to ppl. I know opinionated ppl really push my buttons, but funny how I can come across pretty annoying sometimes. Haha.. I think that's one part I really need to face - my own contradictory nature, not others'. Today's service was really good, in that it was totally 0 hype, 50% disciplining yourself, 50% move of God. I was really (really really really) tired. Like stoning on my feet. First time tt I actually felt how hard it is to tell ur body that you don't wanna sleep, you wanna get this cos it really applies to you! And really.. God really moved when I moved. It's awesome! So many things that I've heard preached and talked about, things I've learnt as fact by accepting it, now I'm experiencing it like having a 'first time' every week! Things like, 'discipline', when I'd just heard a message on it days before, I'll be challenged to...

These are soundbites from Phil Pringle's 'Strategies for Success - Discipline' - 'I can understand why people believe in evolution. Before our spirit came alive, our body is an animal! We're driven by animal instincts, our lusts, emotions, desires.' - 'Jesus: Go, therefore and make disciples...' -' What makes a disciple? You need discipline.' - 'Your emotions, your desires, hopes, dreams, passions, intellect - your hold being, is held together by one single thread. That is your will, your choice.' - 'Say with me, discipline . I know, it's hard to say isn't it. We're more used to saying things like, 'FREEDOM!' - An undisciplined, undiscipled life, is like a wild horse, a brumby, running out there in the wilderness. Oh, it looks beautiful you know, free, inspiring but basically, it's useless. Yea, you can't use it for anything, it won't obey you, it's energies and strengths won't be harnessed by ...

You know, what Mark Conner said is true. We're not just trying to be better people. If that were the case, I think i'd struggle more comfortably out of church than in it! But it's really about reading the Bible, and learning from the 'guidebook', how to train yourself to be holy, to be righteous, all those cheem words we don't really understand. I'm learning to guard my QT jealously. This is after the conference with Benny Hinn! I went there with doubts - i'd read in Christian websites, or heard from my relatives overseas, the criticisms he faces; why does he ask for offerings to fund his crusades? how come some ppl don't get healed in his crusade? why does he have to be so dramatic? does he think he's the one healing? etc & etc. But really, when I was in the choir, i could feel how there was a lack of the presence of God throughout the praise - maybe cos the audience didn't know the songs, and there weren't lyrics. But when Pst Benny...

Please don't drink and drive. you're not quite ready to meet me yet. God Could you imagine the price of air if it were brought to you by another supplier? God When you're weary, feeling small. When tears are in your eyes, i will them all. Simon & Garfunkel Ditto. God Earthlings, don't treat me like an alien. God If you miss the sunrise I made for you today, never mind. I'll make you another one tomorrow. God How can you possibly be a self-made man? I specifically recall creating you. God If you think the Mona Lisa is stunning, you should look at my masterpiece. In the mirror. God Don't forget your umbrella. I might water the plants today. ...

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you know what, i just wanna finish this TV programme.. i dun even feel like praying.. God, you understand right, this is like the only time i fellowship with my family - u understand Joanne. Joanne. Joanne. i dun need this aggravation right now - i mean, i have so many other things to do - God, make up your mind, which do you want me to do first??? Ok.. God, I get where you're coming from, seek you first and all tt right.. but dude, you need to explain like step-by-step man, i dun see how juggling all this is do-able !!! Come Joanne, step out of your boat and walk to me. Even when you start sinking, you only have to call out. Step out and watch me do a miracle! God, if these ppl go through so much with you and they still backslide, where does that put me?? I think i'm gonna sleep on this. I will never forsake you - remember my goodness. God, everything's messed up. Sometimes it seems like i can't get into the lives of ppl i love. Can't help or give anything. I don...

Woo~ Just came back from *drumroll 'farewell dinner for Hengyi!' (and Yuhao actually.. lol XD) If you're reading this - all the best for NS! =D Kenny Rogers: 3.5 out of 5 stars.. lol.. funny tt one shld remember Kenny Rogers for it's side dishes! =D good la, v recommended~ Lol.. I think must secretly go touch up on arcade n pooling skills... lol.. > Jeannette-or-Joanne Game! Q1. (at 1) Q2. (at 2+) Q3. (at 5+)

more and more, i'm coming to really understand by experience, that this walk is really through the wilderness. valleys ahead, for sure. but then i wondered, then what's 'falling' or 'stumbling' mean - if the dry spells are a certainty, why are we called not to fall. light enters the valley too. sometimes you have to climb trees, sometimes you have to believe what others are saying is happening, but the sun always rises everyday, whether you see it or not. when we close our eyes in despair, or push away the hands that reach out to guide us, that's when we can't see the way out, and we stumble and die right there. Falling is a choice. Same as holding on. Everything is. I want to be a person of integrity - I won't complain and encourage using the same mouth, so it's time to decide which. I won't judge and love using the same heart, so it's time to decide which. the last canada trip was really trying. Funny that it should be! I really prayed ...