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You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.
I think more like a good chat with a good friend would do good =) Miss Ber!>< It's great to find ppl who share the same passions you do eg. Ber, but it's miraculous to click with ppl who don't but whom you love the same! eg. Mic, La, Ai, Jean etc.
Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.
Relationship-wise - rocking-boat situations = easily depressed. BUT that's something I want to change. One thing I'm being taught, to love always comes first before any reciprocation. I know I have to work on getting it across - everybody seems to feel loved in different ways! ><
In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.
YES YES YES! Climb mountain climb mountain climb mountain!!! >< Feel sad - don't want it to be empty talk leh... =.=
You are frustrated and stressed. Naw.Really. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.
No - I decide I don't want to be like that and i'm working on it. Fullstop. There's nothing to be proud of - being critical. It only speaks of being narrow-hearted.
You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.


Accurate - scary!!!><

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